Depression (also known as major depressive disorder) can be challenging to manage because your symptoms may not be limited to just one episode and may return without an appropriate treatment plan.
- Depressed mood most of the day; feeling sad or empty, tearful
- Significant loss of interest or pleasure in activities that used to be enjoyable
- Significant weight loss (when not dieting) or weight gain; decrease or increase in appetite
- Difficulty sleeping or sleeping too much
- Agitation; or slowing down of thoughts and reduction of physical movements
- Fatigue or loss of energy
- Feelings of worthlessness or inappropriate guilt
- Poor concentration or having difficulty making decisions
- Thinking about death or suicide
For the past 11 years I have been fighting each of these symptoms and I just don't know if I have the strength to keep fighting.. It has been worse this year because of certain things changing and or happening in my life.. I keep trying to hold on, but I feel it all slipping through my fingers.. Most people have no idea.. because I fake it well.. No, I am not ok.. but eventually I will be.. I have to be.. and when I am asked what is wrong.. I don't even know how to start trying to explain... right now I feel sort of broken and very empty.... and I really hate feeling this way.. probably why I try to ignore it as much as possible..
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