Tremendous Tuesday!!! (Fettuccine Alfredo)

As I sit here sipping a warm cup of White Chocolate Mocha, listening to Pandora Radio,  and enjoying listening to the rain I realize how very much I love our new home..  We have decorated for Christmas and are so excited to be spending our first Christmas here..   I love the tree that we got,  it is a little over the top..  10 ft tall.. lol  full of lights and ornaments..  each ornament brings back so many memories..
This time of year makes me miss my mother, sister, nieces, nephews and brother so much.. so hard to believe that my mom has been gone for 12 years..  I remember Christmases as a child,  the greatest joy I had was lying in the living room floor under the tree and looking up at it.. Joanne and I did that every year..  we would lie there in the dark and talk..  there are no words to express how very much I miss her.. she was my best friend..  she knew everything about me..  every tiny detail about my life..  and sometimes unfortunately I knew every tiny detail about hers..  I don't know that I will ever be able to let anyone get that close to me again..  now I am very guarded..  I hear that a lot.. that I am guarded and closed off..  not sure if I will ever be able to be any different..  a person can only take so much heart break..  I give a lot of love,  but I do keep a tiny part of myself secluded and don't let anyone in..  and writing this and leaving it here in my blog freaks me out a tiny bit..  I don't like being this open..  such a vicious cycle.. 
My day wasn't the best,  but I am not going to dwell on it..   It is over and things have been decided that are beyond my control,  so I am not going to think about it again until I have to..  I am off tomorrow and plan on doing some shopping for the cookies and treats I am going to bake this year, maybe go to a few thrift stores and make a stop at Michaels.. then a late lunch with an old friend that I haven't seen in many many years..  :)
For dinner tonight I made Fettuccine Alfredo.. it is a lower fat version and very yummy,  not real heavy..

Fettuccine Alfredo

1 pkg fettuchine, cooked according to pkg directions
2 1/2 c  chicken broth
8 tsp flour
8oz light or non fat cream cheese
minced garlic
pepper
1/4 c parmesan cheese
chopped parsley(optional)

In a large saucepan heat the chicken broth,  whisk in the flour until smooth, add the garlic and pepper,  cook a couple minutes add the cream cheese and melt over low heat,  add the parmesan cheese, stir  until melted.. add the cooked fettuccine stir well.. sprinkle with chopped parsley..  serve hot with a green salad and bread..